‘Now, You Walk With Me.’
Loneliness creeps in at noon,
She begs me not to leave her lonely
She tugs ’til I’m holding the steering wheel with my mind stirring away,
My eyes are wide open as I lose control,
As the wheels don’t stop and I don’t stop them,
My life doesn’t flash before my eyes
But she’s here
‘There’s no one to call’.
My phone rings,
My mind stares back
Flashing memories of loved ones,
Loneliness shuts the door
As love invades all her spaces,
Find me as my heart beats,
As air pours into me,
As being alive becomes it all…
Does the air in my lungs keep me alive,
Does it keep loneliness away
Or does she still creep in
When life steeps,
How do I keep my head above water when I’m constantly swimming
my arms will ache,
My feet will struggle,
How do I not give in and let the ocean make me hers.
Find me on days when it’s a battle,
When the civil war that began in my head becomes a world war,
My being fights-
Torn between drowning or not drowning,
The ocean kisses me on the lips
And I call it love,
She whispers daily
She ticks all the boxes of the 5 languages.
What delivers my heart
What ceases the war
For I’ve died a thousand times to stay alive,
I know not how to come back again…
Teach me a new way to love
Show me what it truly looks like,
Pump life into my lungs,
And let me live,
Let me breathe,
So when the darkness comes,
It will drown itself in the ocean of light.
The answers are never far away,
The darkness can’t take the children of the light,
I stay afloat
One day at a time,
One battle at a time,
This daughter now has joy,
This daughter knows not the name of loneliness,
For she now walks with the All-father.
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WRITTEN BY: MARIAM ALAYANDE
ILLUSTRATION BY: AMARINS DE JONG